Okay Kevin, you asked us to write about what we’re feeling etc., Here you go.  I feel ready and hesitant at the same time.  I don’t mind talking to people about God, ask my neighbors, my sister etc. 

I am that person, though, that likes to be fit before entering the gym, so to go to someone I know will stretch me, scares me.  I have been praying for my sister for while, and she is one who stretches me, but I didn’t realize it until today.  My sister, on the other hand, challenges me in a whole other way.  She seems like she listens, and understands, is willing to take steps and from the outside looks like she’s ready to take leaps.  I get excited and tell everyone about her progress, and then she leaps backwards.  UGH, how this truly annoys me. 

From reading this book I decided I needed more God, and less of me, duh! I have been trying to create these adventures, but it’s those talks that just don’t seem to get through. I need to just remain calm and patient, keep praying for her.  When it’s God’s timing these talks will equal progress.  What’s crazy is that when He is ready, I don’t feel ready, and I get scared.  I get hot and talk loud and fast from feeling ill-equipped.   I have been praying that these adventures would come with my sister (and others) and that I would not speak any of my own words, but His words.  It would be cool if I didn’t even remember what I said, that way I truly would know it was Him and not me.  I know she will come to the Lord one day, God has promised me of that in a vision I had years ago.  I am clinging onto that. 

Until that day comes though, I need to remember that yes I need to study and read the word, but essentially, God is the one who is going to make a difference in her life, not me.  I’m just His puppet, He’s the puppeteer.  I need to keep praying for her and be ready for this adventure that He is going to take me on, not only with my sister, but hopefully with many others.  I also need not to get annoyed with these people it seem they are taking a step back, or  feel inadequate when things don’t go to MY plan.  Basically, I need to remember, as Mark reminded us, “It’s not about me.” 

That’s what’s going through my head, a bunch on rambling.  I hope it made sense though.  Thanks for listening.

Today got me thinking…..my days are numbered. It’s not something to scare me into a depression, but to get me into a conversation. My girls came first to mind. I have been trying my best to teach them about God and His love since I was pregnant – literally. But what about the times I am “too busy”, am I teaching them about His love? Is God ever too busy for us? No! Are we, as parents, supposed to set an example of God’s love for them? YES!

So how in the world can I even for a moment be too busy for those BEAUTIFUL girls? I can’t! I can’t be too busy for them, nor for anyone else God allows me to chat with. I don’t know when my days are up, but I sure do want to cram in all the God talk I can into people’s hearts.

Thanks Kevin for putting this book into my hands and not being “too busy” to do so. God Bless you!!