When I open my mouth to speak about Jesus and the gospel, the words go off of the other person like water off of a duck’s back, or they go over like a led ballon. I want to be used by God to seek and save the lost. But when I experience worthless failures with a lot of stress, I have to say there is no use for me to continue to do this.
Honest Al
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Hi Al
You wrote:
When I open my mouth to speak about Jesus and the gospel, the words go off of the other person like water off of a duck’s back, or they go over like a led balloon. I want to be used by God to seek and save the lost. But when I experience worthless failures with a lot of stress, I have to say there is no use for me to continue to do this.
Hi Al
I have a question, if I may…
You said something very interesting…you said you had a lot of worthless failures with a lot of stress.
Where does that stress come from?
Is that from you being rejected or the message that you presented, to the other person, being rejected?
Take care…
That is a perfect question. It is probably me being rejected that I can not stand. I am mentally ill, and I can not stand pressure or rejection. I need a lot of support because of my illness. This is why I hang up on salesmen. I can’t stand the pressure they put me under to accept their product and believe their way about what they have to offer. I have even had to do this to all churches. They all have their quirky little beliefs, ways, programs and schedules they pressure you into becoming a part of. Even though I have a very close relationship to God, I have had to slam the door on all churches pressuring me to do as they do and believe as they believe. God and I are extremely happy by ourselves, and because of my illness, I have had to drop out of this particular program because I can not stand the pressure it puts me under and the rejection I experience. God gives me the support I need with my illness, but I can’t handle the pressure, the rejection or the stress this program puts me under. My illness was so bad that I have had grand mal seizures for the last ten years. My last ones were 8/24,25/2008. I can’t afford the risk that this program will make me so ill that I start to have seizures again.
A Sorry, Al
Hi Al
Wow…your up either very late or really early (3:58am) depending on how the time is looked at.
I do the same thing…I always have done that.
You certainly express your thoughts really well!
You write very well also.
Do you do a lot of writing?
Anyway, my sister had grand mal seizures, her’s were controlled by medication.
As of late, she has not had any…but I am familiar with them.
My son in law, goes to our church…he has seizures as well.
His name is Mike Cunningham, I don’t know if you know him.
Sometimes he operates the camera during the Sunday morning service.
He had one brain operation, several years ago, and it helped some.
He just finished having some tests done and which better pin points additional brain scaring.
That was just this past Tuesday 8/ 19/2009.
He is waiting for word and is expected to hear back in a couple of weeks as to when
he will have a second operation to correct the additional scaring.
He still has seizures but with medication they are somewhat controlled.
Anyway, I hope to stick around…no pressure just to see how you are doing and chit chat with you.
Are you able to work if so…what do you do?
If not…got any hobbies?
God Bless…take care
He is expected to have another
son in law has
When anyone offers a solution to someone else, without know what that other person
wants
Thanks for the comment about me being a good writer. I believe this is one of the gifts that God has given me. It is just that I don’t know how to use it to reveal the glory of God to others. Famous people can write books and they sell. If I were to write a book, I doubt if it would get published or sell. With my mental illness, the key board is my friend……
I have been diagnosed as bipolar, but I never found a psychiatrist or psychologist who were any help for me. I had grand mal seizures for ten years and was averaging 3 every 4 months, but the doctors were absolutely no help for me. I was taking 10 seizure pills a day which did not help. They even implanted a battery above my heart and wraped wires around my vegas nerve to send a shock up to my brain for 1/2 a minute every five minutes, but this did not help.
I can not handle life. I have had to drop out of society. This has stopped my bipolar swings and my seizures. I can not date, get married, have a roomate, have friends, have a job, and I have tried a dozen or more churches but I always walk away and say there is no place for me here to be involved. I live in total isolation, but the problem here is that even without being depressed, without any attachments in my life, I live on the edge of committing suicide. The love I receive from God and live in is the only constant in my life and the only support for my life that I have.
My life is in such a mess right now that I am going to try once again to see a psychiatrist. Maybe I will have to live the rest of my life drugged up and maybe live in an insane asylum. I have been able to stop the seizures and the bipolar swings, but my solution of dropping out of society and living in total isolation leaves my life too wanting. I am in a mess. Please forgive me.
Al
Hi Al
You wrote:
Thanks for the comment about me being a good writer. I believe this is one of the gifts that God has given me.
I don’t know how to use it to reveal the glory of God to others. Famous people can write books and they sell. If I were to write a book, I doubt if it would get published or sell.
Please, permit me to make a suggestion…there is a web site…www.parapublishing.com
Also a book written by Dan Poynter ( that is his web site) entitled ” The Self Publishing Manual”… it may be found at the library.
It may also be found on Amazon as well.
I think that the cost, in paper back, is about 15 to 20 dollars.
It is update consistently.
In the back of the book is a recourse section that may be of interest to you. This is where I would start.
There are a lot of web sites in that book that could answer a lot of your questions. IMHO
I also write…mostly poems for kids….some short stories.
Also I am a developing cartoonist and always in the learning process myself.
I have found that a lot of writers, cartoonists and inventors work odd hours, are somewhat solitary and….somewhat different…to say the least.
We are…it is what it is.
It seems to be, almost, a characteristic of all creative people.
I know of people who are bi polar who still manage, with medical assistance, to live productive, rewarding and good lives.
You have a definite gift for writing and are able to express your thoughts very well.
This truly may be your calling and, based on your interest and abilities demonstrated, it should be considered…I would suggest that you consider it.. IMHO
What would you like to write about?
Take care…
Thanks to you I will face the challenge of writing. I will no longer be overwhelmed with fear. You ask what would you like to write about? I would like to write about Christianity and how it is the glue that will hold your life together during any tragedy or loss. It will hold your marriage together, and keep your life headed in the right direction so that you can be productive in any job and career you choose that would utilize your abilities. Christianity is far more than church on Sunday morning. Christianity is a committment above all other committments in your life that will enable you to keep all of those other committments. Christianity gives you a life changing moment by moment love relationship with God who is the wonderful creator of our universe and all of the unque lives who live in it.
Al
Hi Al
Very well stated!
Indeed, putting into words one’s own convictions and sharing them in a thoughtful and informative way, is a benefit to all concerned. IMHO
Much can be learned and enjoyed by doing so.
It’s all about the other person.
Behind every face…is a human being.
Presenting a solution to someone, our way of doing something, before understanding what the other person needs or interests are…
is the BIG WHY rejection occurs….ALWAYS and ALWAYS!!!
No matter what you think or know the other person should have…unless the other person has an interest or need…in what you are offering them, they will reject… what you are offering them.
I think you will be really good at writing.
The Lord has given you a real talent that you can develop into a great resource for the Kingdom of Heaven.
I do so hope you follow up with this gift.
It can be a blessing to many people all over the world.
Translations are common place today and will increase as the globe gets smaller.
The internet has made it possible for us to communicate 24/7 world wide and in most languages.
We can do this in business, personal relationships and ministries.
You are on your way Al!
God Bless you and your work and thank you for letting me share.
Take care…
The enemy is trying to shut you up. He’s going to fail, Al, because your desire to please Jesus is way stronger than your fear of failure. Come see me! I’ve got the help I told you about…..This is going to be great!
God doesn’t ask me to do things that I don’t have the talents, gifts, skills and abilities to do. If I can’t climg up the side of the empire state building without falling, God doesn’t expect me to try. There is far more to living for God’s glory than telling others about Jesus and the gospel. This is just one of the ways, and if I don’t have the abilities to do that, God doesn’t expect me to do this.
Maybe I should just clean up the trash on the ground in the public park, mow the lawn of an invalid person, visit someone dying of cancer, or offer my help in any way I can to help anyone with any of their needs. God didn’t give us our abilities for saelfish purposes for our own benefits. They were given to benefit others and we are to manage them well so that God’s generosity can flow through us. Then God will be given glory.
Each of us were uniquely designed by God with different abilities to do many different things. Telling others about God is just one ability that God gives some of His people. There are many other abilities that God give others that can be used in many different ways to bring about God’s glory. W
We just need to discover our own unique abilities and determine what is the best way they can be used to bring about God’s glory. We don’t have to all do the same things, like telling others about Jesus and the gospel.
As you continue to read daily in this book you might discover that all the things you listed are part of sharing Jesus with others. It’s certainly not just talking. Your testimony includes your walk and your service to others. Your walk IS your talk.
Al, you never know the effect you are having. As described in both the forward of the book and in day 2 reading, the author had two expeirences that come to mind that you need to think about before giving up. First, he mentioned that he was wondering if he was just one of many people who would speak into this persons life and at some point later the person would get it. Remember, every seed planted is just as important to God. Second, and I think it was in the same story, it turned out that the wisdom was for someone who simply overheard. Take heart. God’s got your back. Don’t quit.
It is already very obvious to me that I have quite different talents, gifts, skills and abilities than the authors of this book. God doesn’t expect me to do the same things that they do and He doesn’t expect them to waste their time doing the things that I may be good at doing. Each of us were uniquely designed by God with different abilities to do many different things. Telling others about God is just one ability that God gives some of His people. God doesn’t expect me to bang my head against the wall with my stressful efforts trying to do things that I do not have the abilities to do. We each just need to discover our own unique abilities and determine what is the best way they can be used to bring about God’s glory. We don’t have to all do the same thing, like telling others about Jesus and the gospel. Some of us are managers, writers, called to help others, good servants, stewards, artists of many kinds. witnesses, or evangelists.
Al
Keep posting, Al. (and reading). I love hearing your heart. When are you going to come hang out with me some more?